09 May 2008

Why is it ... ?

that when you finally get some parts of life in order others fall apart? You wouldn't know it from the above pic, huh? This was taken at a end of the semester party at a professor's house with some of my favorite classmates. They really do make me happy.

I'm just about to wrap up my 2nd semester back in school, and I've absolutely loved it. It's not been an easy road, but loving the work and having fantastic classmates have made it much easier than it would have been otherwise. It's difficult for me to believe I'm now half way through, though. This year has completely flown by. And, it's scary to think about the prospect of finding a job in this economy when, despite my best efforts, I've been unable to secure an internship in the field for this summer.

Unfortunately, with success seems to have come some lack of success too. Things have gotten worse between my husband and me. In my efforts to focus on school, I've let most other things go, and while school is very important, it's not the only thing in my life. And I know I need to be able to balance, even if not entirely evenly, all aspects of my life. I don't fear losing him in the same way I did before because I know I can do things on my own. But, I don't want to see our marriage fall apart nonetheless. We have so much together, he's such a big part of my life, and my life just wouldn't be the same without him.