26 October 2005


I love Halloween. I don't know exactly why it is, but I do. Maybe it's because as a child my parents were never into it, so I never had a very good costume or anything. They'd let me go trick-or-treating and everything, but it wasn't a big deal to them at all. So, recently, I bought some candy to give out to kids on Halloween and decided to take some in to share with my co-workers. I've had it there for about a week, and every day I have to refill it. But, I've been very good. I haven't had one piece of the stuff despite the fact that in previous years it was the one time of year I'd allow myself candy. Although, I will admit I did buy myself a small bag of sugar free York Peppermint Patties. I've had a few, but it's not something that I'm really drawn to anymore.

And, further bolstering my resolve, I had to get a new ID today, and when the person taking my picture saw what my old picture looked like, she was thoroughly shocked! I hadn't looked at my old ID much, and now that I have the new one to compare it to, I just can't believe the difference!! It's soooo fabulous!!

25 October 2005

Too little sleep ...

makes a very wonky Jenn. We had a power outage last night at about 1:30 am. I sleep with a white noise machine, and as soon as the power went out, I was up like a bolt. Jason wasn't in bed, so along with the dead silence and pitch black, it really freaked me out. The power didn't come back on until 4:30am (just a half hour before the alarm was set to go off), and during that time I got probably no more than an hour of sleep. So, today, I've been thoroughly run down and completely exhausted. I can't say that it's any worse than it would have been prior to surgery, but who knows! I just hope it doesn't happen again anytime soon!!

22 October 2005

Hmmm, maybe being in pictures isn't so bad ...

This picture was taken today by my husband in our great room. We absolutely love the stone fireplace! Now that the highs aren't getting above 50 or so degrees, we just wish the room were insulated. I'm wearing a sweater from last year (so it's big) and jeans I bought a little over a month ago. I'm still not where I want to be, but I'm thrilled with how I now look. Maybe I won't hide from the camera so much this Christmas.

18 October 2005

The Navy's In Town!

For the first time _ever_ I shopped at and bought clothes for myself from Old Navy last night. (I don't think Old Navy was around the last time I was able to fit into "Misses" or "Regular" sized clothing.) I did learn, though, that Old Navy has a Plus sized line of clothing for women now, but previous to last night I had no idea they did because it's not something they’ve publicized very well. (Oh, the shame of being a woman and being overweight!)

Despite the existence of the Plus sized line, I was very interested in seeing if I’d fit into pieces from the misses sizes. I ended up purchasing 2 pairs of pants from the misses line (probably more of a mental victory for me than anything) even though pants from the plus line might have fit a little better.

But, what it left me wondering is why are a pair of pants in a misses size 20 cheaper than a pair of pants in a plus size 14? Is the cost of designing and manufacturing plus sized clothing that much greater than petite sized clothing (which in my experience isn’t any more expensive than misses clothing)? Yes, I realize there’s more fabric needed for plus sized clothes as opposed to petite, but in the case of my earlier question, there’s got to be more fabric going into a misses size 20 than into the plus size 14.

I’ve stepped down from my soapbox. Thankfully, I lost 4 lbs over the past week. So that takes me to a total loss of 69 lbs and ever closer to hitting the below 200 lb mark. I do, however, finally weigh less than my husband. Yeah!!!!!

10 October 2005

Thoroughly Frustrated

Not only is my hair falling out, but I haven't lost more than 2 lbs over the past 2 weeks. I'm doing 32 minutes on the elliptical every other day (which is a lot more than I'd (sadly) been doing), I'm not sitting on my butt all day at work (I end up having to run all over the 4 building complex I work in all day) and I know I'm eating well. (For example, we went to a dinner party on Saturday, and everyone else was pigging out on cookies, tortilla chips and soda. I had not even one! And, yesterday, I spent probably a half hour to 45 minutes searching for a low calorie, low fat, high protein recipe that I could make and eat for dinner over the next few days.) I know I shouldn't compare, but I look at other RNY post-ops who had surgery about the same time, and they've lost so much more than me! What the hell am I doing wrong?

Yes, I'm thrilled with the 64lbs I have lost (as compared with nothing), but because I'm not losing at the rate I'd like, I'm becoming much more critical of the issues with my body that are really sticking out to me now. And I _really_ wanted to be around a 100lb total loss by the time we go down to my husband's mother's house for Thanksgiving. Now, I'm beginning to doubt if I'll even be under 200lbs by then. :P~~~~~~!!!!!

One positive note, I got two new bras yesterday, and as Stacy and Clinton would say, the girls are finally up where they should be! And, it's a completely comfortable bra! Yeah!!!