03 May 2006

I've lost fat and years!

I realized something today. The fat I was carrying around made me mentally and emotionally older. We all know carrying around an extra person makes you age faster physically, and because of society's stigma against fat people, it affects us emotionally. But, what I realized today is that it made me feel as though I had to act older too. I mean, I felt like I would be accepted less than I already was if I was behaving too "young" or immaturely. You know, "what does she think she's doing?!" But, now that I'm thinner (i.e. a "normal") person, I feel like it's ok to act cute, young, etc. I'm not saying I want to behave that way all the time, but I guess what I'm saying is I can use the ability to act "cute" to my advantage if needed ... say in trying to get out of a speeding ticket or something. (No, I've not had the occasion to try that out!) But, it's there if I need it, right?


Melissa said...

"The fat I was carrying around made me mentally and emotionally older." I can relate to this. Now I feel more vibrant and more alive. I think that "young at heart" phrase is true. We as old as we behave. I also will not go out and act like I'm a teen but I surely will not act like a frumpy old grandma anymore.

Jessica said...

I totally agree, but I figured it was because we're forced to wear old lady fat clothes :) Now you can wear "cute" hip clothes!

Claire said...

I can relate to this post in so many ways. This week I have been giving a lot of thought to how people react to me and how differently (better) people treat me now that I am smaller - although still far from a "normal" frame. I like it and at the same time it annoys the heck out of me.